Saturday, May 18, 2013

Just Me: Lessons from a disobedient dog

Just Me is a new series I will be working on periodically that won't have any fancy pictures or adventures, just me and my thoughts.

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Gracie got spayed this week in Kansas City. I woke up early on Wednesday and dropped her off for the day. While she got fixed, I sat in Starbucks for hours looking for jobs.

Around 6pm I picked Gracie back up. She was so drowsy from the anesthesia; I had a hard time figuring out if she was in any pain or not. I set her in the grass to potty before our drive back to Topeka.

As we drove away Gracie tried to hop on my lap from the passengers seat. She immediately let out a long, sad, painful cry. 

It startled me. I had never heard her cry that way before. I carefully picked her up and set her back in the seat next to me, only for her to cry again.

It was absolutely ear piercing. 


The sad cries continued periodically as Gracie tried to adjust on her blanket for the next hour and half. 

As we exited i70 to Topeka, Gracie tried to hop on my lap to investigate. She could not resist the temptation to move, even though it hurt her.

I set her back in the passenger seat. Over and over again she tried to move.

She would not listen. "Gracie, STAY! Gracie, STAY!" 

This dog just could not understand what movements made her hurt. So she continued.

Listen, Gracie. Stop moving.

More movement. More cries.

Listen to me. Listen.

Still movement. Still cries.

I finally arrived home, in tears. Must be the motherly instincts buried somewhere deep inside me. I realize it's just a dog, but it was painful to watch her in such pain. Especially when I knew how to help her. 

After an emotionally draining trip, I recognized how much I had learned from the experience.

It's as if God is me and I am Gracie.

He says "Listen to me. Just listen. I will help you."

And what do I do? I don't listen. I go my own way. I think I know what's right. I hurt myself in the process. 

He says again "Katie, listen. Listen to me."

And I go the absolute opposite direction. Like I know best. Like I don't need Him.

And he continues to be there, ready for me to come back and listen to Him. Ready for me to recognize that His ways are ALWAYS better than our own ways.

And after traveling down my own selfish path I do come back. And I wish that I would have listened the whole time to His soft voice. 

The voice that ALWAYS speaks truth and ALWAYS speaks in love. 

I am so very thankful for His voice. 

Without His voice I would be lost. Desperate for direction in life.

The beautiful thing about God is that His voice can be heard by anyone. You don't have to be perfect. You don't have to know all of the answers. Because He does.

TRUST that He knows what is best for you. LISTEN to Him. I guarantee you will experience joy and fulfillment that you cannot find on your own.

And know that this post is really just a reminder to myself, so that I might recognize the frequency in which I chose to not listen and live selfishly instead. I'd say that's a pretty big lesson exposed from my disobedient dog.


"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,' declares the Lord." Isaiah 55:8

"Come near to God and he will come near to you." James 4:8

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    1. Thanks girl! And true it is! Sometimes I get so wrapped up in life that I miss things like this. Can you imagine all He tries to teach us daily, we just don't listen to hear Him? Anyway, your blog is adorable! Love the name of it!

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  2. Katie: I was introduced to your blog by Abbye Torgerson who sent a link to it. I love your writing and your beautiful dog Gracie. I have two fur babies so let me give a word of advice. While you are traveling with her, for her safety and yours please travel with her in a crate. It's the safest way and you sure don't want anything bad to happen to anyone in the vehicle. I almost got safety harnesses for my boys until I read a report that they almost all have a 100% fail rate and are disastrous for the dog. I am bookmarking your blog, I love uplifting reads and yours is great!

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